...so here I begin...
In 2010 my life fell apart. I'll spare you the dramatic details, but suffice it to say I was meltdown central for a good year (or two). In the midst of this devastating emotional breakdown, my sister suggested that I read the book "Eat, Pray, Love". Unfortunately, I couldn't get more than a few pages in before getting so emotional I had to put the book down. It wasn't until months later that I had the courage to sit and read the book...and I'll just go ahead and be a truthful sap and tell you it changed my life.
The book was relatable, and that was comforting, but the true awakening was to meditation and eastern philosophies. I began to study Buddhism (not actually in the book but that is where I landed in my exploration), and therein WOKE UP and for the first time in my life began to get glimpses of things as they truly are.
So now I'm "stable" again (certain in uncertainty or fooling myself?), and a very different version of myself (whatever myself is). I meditate and read philosophy daily (Buddhist and otherwise, I'm particularly fond of Krishnamurti). I feel so happy for the calm, but I fear (and what is fear?) the day when I next suffer major emotional upheaval. How will I cope? I still have so far to go. Will I need another year (or two) to get back to my center? I hope not, but all I have is the now.
So here's a little blog where I'll write about my practice. Maybe someone out there can relate, maybe I'll create a little online sangha. Or maybe I'll just have a little online repository for my thoughts.
Hopefully, someone can benefit from this.
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